Welcome to Controlled Chaos, a podcast for the high-achieving, overthinking, emotionally exhausted professionals living with Bipolar Type 2 and PTSD.I’m Alexis Smalls, a healthcare consultant, trauma survivor, and a woman learning how to lead, work, and live while managing a mind that doesn’t always cooperate.This space isn’t polished or perfect.It’s unfiltered, honest, and necessary.Every episode is a deep breath for the ones masking their symptoms in meetings, managing deadlines between depressive spirals, or questioning their worth after every emotional wave.Here, we talk about what it really means to show up professionally when your nervous system is always on edge, and how to build a life that makes space for both your ambition and your diagnosis.If you’re craving truth, community, and conversation that understands the both and of being successful and struggling, you’re in the right place.

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Trauma doesn’t disappear just because you’re dressed for the office. In this episode, Alexis gets real about what PTSD looks like at work—from anxiety in meetings to shutting down after a simple email. If you’ve ever felt like your nervous system was in overdrive while trying to &#34;keep it professional,&#34; this one’s for you.We’re unpacking:<ul><li>How PTSD symptoms sneak into your 9–5</li><li>Why some work environments feel unsafe without being “toxic”</li><li>Grounding tools that help you stay centered</li><li>What real support at work should look like</li></ul>Whether you’re surviving, thriving, or somewhere in between—this conversation is your permission to be honest about what healing looks like at work.

Episode 2: PTSD in the Professional Space – When Triggers Clock In With You

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Welcome to Controlled Chaos!

*Welcome to Controlled Chaos,* a podcast for the high-achieving, overthinking, emotionally exhausted professionals living with *Bipolar Type 2* and *PTSD.*

I’m Alexis Smalls , a healthcare consultant, trauma survivor, and a woman learning how to lead, work, and live while managing a mind that doesn’t always cooperate.

This space isn’t polished or perfect.

It’s unfiltered, honest, and necessary.

Every episode is a deep breath for the ones masking their symptoms in meetings, managing deadlines between depressive spirals, or questioning their worth after every emotional wave.

Here, we talk about what it really means to show up professionally when your nervous system is always on edge, and how to build a life that makes space for both your ambition and your diagnosis.

If you’re craving truth, community, and conversation that understands the both and of being successful and struggling, you’re in the right place.