Today we’re talking to Paul Gehring — author of Scars You Can’t See — about the kind of pain men carry quietly. Paul is the guy everyone calls “the rock.” Husband. Father of four. Caregiver to a wife who has endured multiple open-heart surgeries and a life-altering stroke.

From the outside, he looks steady. Inside? Anxiety. Panic attacks. Depression. Suicidal thoughts. Burnout. Shame. Self-medication. And the constant pressure to hold it all together. In this conversation, we talk about:

• Planning your wife’s funeral the night before surgery

• Sitting in a hospital wondering if she will wake up

• Being the “strong one” while quietly cracking

• Why men don’t ask for help

• The lie that vulnerability is weakness

• What support actually looks like

• Why depression tells you you’re alone (and why that’s not true)

• And how trauma can either fracture a family — or forge it

Paul shares the moment he nearly ended his life… and the therapy that saved it.

We talk about guilt, resentment, isolation, alcohol, acceptance, and the pressure men feel to be the rock — even when they feel more like a cotton ball underwater.

This episode is honest. Raw. Real. If you’ve ever thought:

• “I should be able to handle this.”
• “I don’t want to burden anyone.”
• “Nobody understands what I’m carrying.”
• “Maybe it would be easier if I just wasn’t here.”

Listen to this one. You are not alone. And the things we don’t talk about own us.

Paul’s book: Scars You Can’t See: Chaos Survived, Fear Faced, and The Will To Fight Found is available on Amazon.

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Adrain Brodeur’s story is one of faith forged in fire. From an abusive childhood to the edge of suicide at eight years old, he found redemption in the belief that his life still mattered — and in time, built a family rooted in love, trust, and faith.

In this conversation, Adrain opens up about what it means to raise strong kids, stay married through every storm, and heal the past by choosing grace over bitterness. You’ll hear about fatherhood, trauma, forgiveness, and the legacy of a man who refused to let darkness define him.

If you’ve ever wondered how to rebuild when the past won’t let go — this one’s for you.

faith, fatherhood, trauma, forgiveness, resilience, legacy, marriage, parenting, men’s mental health, generational healing, Manalizing

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In this unfiltered episode of Manalizing, Nate Shepardson lays bare the battle with pornography addiction and the deeper story beneath it—childhood shame, lost years, financial collapse, and the desperate search for connection. From blowing his net worth on a failed business to staring down unemployment and debt, Nate doesn’t flinch from the “hard.”

But what emerges is not defeat—it’s a system of recovery built on resolve, altered beliefs, daily habits, and the power of phrases like “We don’t do that anymore.” With honesty about relapse, dopamine, and the toxic mix of shame and silence, Nate offers men a way forward: not perfection, but progress. If you’ve ever felt trapped in cycles you can’t break, this conversation will give you tools, language, and hope to rise again.

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He lost a home, broke his body, and nearly ended his life — but somewhere in the wreckage, he found God, purpose, and a new definition of being a man.

Glenn Loveless has lived a life most men couldn’t survive.

He’s a husband of 21 years, father of seven, former bodybuilder, and founder of Your Wingman Coaching.

He’s also a man who has known pain — from losing a home in a lawsuit, to surviving a mountain bike crash that nearly killed him, to facing the moment he held a gun to his own head.

In this conversation, Glenn opens up about what happens when everything you thought made you a man — work, strength, achievement — is suddenly stripped away. He talks about failure, faith, and learning to rebuild when all that’s left is the will to keep breathing.

We explore what it means to heal the boy inside us, and how to forge the man we were meant to become — one scar, one lesson, and one act of courage at a time.

This episode is a raw and redemptive look at what it really takes to grow through pain, not just past it.

⚠️ Content Warnings

Suicidal ideation, accident trauma, faith discussion, family conflict.

🧭 Highlights

• Losing everything — and learning to start again
• The mountain bike crash that changed his life
• “I had a gun in my hand on Christmas Eve” — how emotion suppression nearly killed him
• The truth about men, emotion, and real stoicism
• What his broken body taught him about identity
• How pain refines a man instead of defining him
• Fatherhood, faith, and asking for help when you never have before
• The story behind Heal the Boy, Forge the Man
• “Every man breaks. What matters is how we rebuild.”
• “I’d never been a man before — of course I was going to screw it up.”
• “The more fractures you have, the more valuable you become once you’re whole again.”
• “The Lord left me in the fire long enough not to be destroyed.”
• “When you share your mess, it becomes your message.”
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Glenn Loveless, Your Wingman Coaching, Heal the Boy Forge the Man, men’s mental health, suicide prevention, masculinity, stoicism, vulnerability, faith, fatherhood, trauma recovery, emotional intelligence, Garth Haslem, Manalizing podcast

🧠 Resources Mentioned

• Heal the Boy, Forge the Man — by Glenn Loveless
• Your Wingman Coaching — yourwingmancoach.com
• Promise to Live / I Love You Bro Project
• 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (U.S.) — dial 988
• Manalizing.com — where men talk about what men don’t talk about

If Glenn’s story speaks to you — if you’ve been through the fire, or you’re still in it — share this episode with a man who needs to hear that healing is possible.

Then visit Manalizing.com and find your brothers.

You don’t have to rebuild alone.

He’s a soldier, survivor, and straight shooter. But behind the humor and grit is a man who’s been choked, stabbed, and nearly took his own life — and lived to talk about it.

🎧 Episode DescriptionWyatt Black is the kind of man who’s seen both sides of the line — the uniformed world of order and the private world of chaos.

A U.S. Army veteran and tech entrepreneur, Wyatt opens up about the night his wife tried to kill him, his struggles with PTSD, and the moment he almost ended his life in a bathtub with a bottle of vodka and a handful of razor blades.

In this brutally honest conversation, Wyatt shares how one unexpected phone call saved his life, why men are terrible at talking about emotions, and what it really means to “man up.” He and Garth talk about military culture, manipulation, divorce, and the unspoken pain that drives too many men to silence — and sometimes, to suicide.

But this isn’t a story of despair. It’s a story about redemption, honesty, and how learning to speak your truth can literally save your life.

Content Warnings

Domestic violence, suicide attempt, PTSD, alcohol abuse, and trauma discussion.

Highlights

• The night his wife stabbed him — and what he learned from it
• Why “man up” is the worst advice men ever got
• Emotional manipulation and the blind spots men don’t see coming
• What the Army taught him about communication and accountability
• How one phone call — and one hug — saved his life
• Learning to be valuable again after losing everything
• Redefining strength, vulnerability, and self-worth
• Why violating the man rules might be the only way to survive
• “If you’re not violating the man rules, you’re doing life wrong.”
• “I laid there and told her, if you’re gonna do this, then kill me.”
• “Every man breaks. What matters is how he rebuilds.”
• “I wasn’t valuable — not to myself, not to anyone. So I had to start being valuable.”
• “Sometimes, the most masculine thing you can do is pick up the phone.”

Wyatt Black, military PTSD, domestic violence survivor, suicide prevention, men’s mental health, vulnerability, masculinity, emotional intelligence, Army veteran, Sentinel AI Security, tech entrepreneurship, Manalizing podcast, Garth Haslem

Resources Mentioned

• Sentinel AI Security — sentinelaisecurity.com
• Manalizing.com — where men talk about the things men don’t talk about
• 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (U.S.) — dial 988

If you’ve ever been told to “man up,” or felt like no one would understand what you’re fighting, listen to this one.

Wyatt’s story is a reminder that you don’t need to be perfect — you just need to stay.

Then visit Manalizing.com and join a tribe.

You don’t have to fight alone.

He was a linebacker for the University of Utah — strong, driven, and unstoppable. But the real story started after the lights went out and life got quiet.

🎧 Episode Description

Boo Anderson is a man who’s lived both power and pain.

A former University of Utah linebacker and now a successful financial planner, husband, and father, Boo opens up about what happens when life doesn’t go according to the playbook.

In this episode, he shares his story of chasing dreams, tearing his ACL, watching the NFL slip away, and going through divorce and fatherhood from a distance. He talks about the dark stretch that followed — living with his parents, wondering who he was — and how humility, faith, and fatherhood slowly rebuilt him from the inside out.

We talk about manhood, accountability, and how God refines us in the fire — not to break us, but to make us whole.

This is one of those conversations that starts with football but ends in something deeper: peace, purpose, and the kind of strength that only comes from surrender.

⚠️ Content Warnings

Divorce, loss, parenting struggles, faith transitions.

🧭 Highlights

• Growing up shy — and learning to speak up
• The dream of the NFL, and what happens when it slips away
• Divorce, disappointment, and the slow rebuild
• Learning humility through failure
• Fatherhood from a distance — and how to keep showing up
• Finding Christ and discovering real freedom
• Why trials are the refiner’s fire, not punishment
• “Your life is not just for you — it’s about who you help.”
• “The Lord left me in the fire just long enough to not be destroyed.”
• “The hardest part of losing wasn’t football — it was being away from my kids.”
• “You can’t change the event. You can only change your response.”
• “Life isn’t about you. It’s about who you help.”
• “The Lord won’t let you ruin your spiritual self chasing the wrong dream.”

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Boo Anderson, University of Utah football, faith after failure, divorce recovery, fatherhood, humility, refiner’s fire, LDS Church, men’s mental health, accountability, self-worth, Garth Haslem, Manalizing podcast

🧠 Resources Mentioned

• The Optimistic Child — Martin Seligman
• The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints
• Financial planning through Diversify.com
• Manalizing.com — where men talk about what men don’t talk about

If Boo’s story reminds you of your own — chasing dreams, falling hard, and finding faith again — share this episode with someone who’s rebuilding.

Then visit Manalizing.com — find a tribe, tell your story, and see who you really are.

He’s buried six friends to suicide, lost his dad, his marriage, and nearly himself — but learned how to turn pain into peace and struggle into strength.

Adam Sharp knows loss.

In the past eight years, he’s buried six people to suicide, lost his dad unexpectedly, and watched his marriage of seventeen years dissolve. Yet somehow, he’s not bitter — he’s grounded, grateful, and wiser than most men you’ll ever meet.

In this powerful conversation, Adam talks about grief, guilt, and the impossible moments that break a man down. He shares how a tough-as-nails counselor helped him face the truth, how the gym and a stack of books rebuilt his mind, and how accountability became the backbone of his healing.

From Spherical Man to family tragedies to finding real love again, this episode is a masterclass in what it means to grow stronger instead of harder.

Adam reminds us that you can’t save everyone — but everyone can save someone.

⚠️ Content Warnings

Suicide, grief, loss of family members, divorce, substance mention, trauma recovery.

🧭 Highlights

• Six suicides in eight years — and the guilt that follows
• What “man up” really does to men
• How one counselor “Betty White’d” him into growth
• The marriage that turned into roommates
• Learning to forgive, to love, and to let go
• Raising kids after divorce — without weapons drawn
• The two books that changed his life
• “You can’t save everyone — but everyone can save someone.”
• “Quit chasing happiness. Just be content.”
• “The hardest thing in life is to forgive the people who’ve hurt you.”
• “When you’re in your weakest moment, find peace in the pain and joy in the struggle.”
• “Sometimes the best way to help is just to give someone your time.”

Adam Sharp, men’s mental health, suicide prevention, grief, divorce recovery, accountability, self-improvement, forgiveness, fatherhood, Spherical Man, Extreme Ownership, therapy for men, Letting Go by Hawkins, Hole in My Love Cup, masculinity, vulnerability, Manalizing podcast, Garth Haslem

🧠 Resources Mentioned

• There’s a Hole in My Love Cup — Sven Erlandson
• Letting Go: The Pathway of Surrender — David R. Hawkins
• Extreme Ownership — Jocko Willink & Leif Babin
• 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline — dial 988 (U.S.)
• Manalizing.com — where men talk about what men don’t talk about

If Adam’s story hit you, share this episode with a friend who’s carrying too much.

Then visit Manalizing.com — join a tribe, tell your story, and be heard.

You can’t save everyone, but you can save someone.

He looks like he has it all — talent, brains, creativity — but inside, he fights the same voices every man does: lazy, useless, not enough.

Jeff Beck is the kind of guy who seems to have it all figured out.

Brilliant, creative, successful — a photographer, game designer, podcast host, and comedian. But what happens when the man everyone admires starts wondering if any of it matters?

In this honest and raw conversation, Jeff opens up about ADHD, imposter syndrome, and the late-night voices that whisper, you’re not enough. He shares how he went from failure and layoffs to rediscovering purpose through creativity, connection, and brutal self-honesty.

This episode hits deep for every man who’s ever looked successful on the outside but felt broken on the inside.

⚠️ Content Warnings

Mental health struggles, ADHD, self-loathing, suicidal thoughts (non-graphic).

🧭 Highlights

• Growing up as “the smart kid” — and what happens when it stops being easy
• Why being fired can be the best thing that ever happens to you
• The ADHD double life: visionary and chaos
• What it’s like to be a connector, not a star
• How men mistake “what I do” for “who I am”
• The quiet truth behind talent: constant self-doubt
• Learning to own your holes instead of hiding them
• The creator’s curse — and why making things still saves him
• “I’m brave in the daylight and a coward at night.”
• “I don’t trust myself. That’s the scariest part.”
• “I’m not lazy — I’m overwhelmed.”
• “When I make something, it’s the one time I feel like I matter.”
• “We all have holes. The trick is to stop pretending we don’t.”

Jeff Beck, ADHD, creativity, depression, imposter syndrome, men’s mental health, purpose, burnout, entrepreneurship, self-doubt, perfectionism, Manalizing, Garth Haslem podcast

If you’ve ever looked like you’re winning but felt like you’re falling apart, this episode is for you.

Share it with a man who creates, who questions, or who’s quietly fighting himself.

Then join us at Manalizing.com — where men talk about the things men don’t talk about.

He was homeless, drunk, and ready to end it all — until he learned that real freedom isn’t doing whatever you want. It’s becoming who you’re meant to be.

At twenty-six, Sean Van Brent has already lived a lifetime.

Marine veteran, roofer, and entrepreneur, he’s been homeless, addicted, and suicidal. He’s also been sober, successful, and at peace — and the gap between those two worlds came down to one word: freedom.

In this raw conversation, Sean opens up about being kicked out of the Marines, losing his sense of worth, and spiraling into isolation and alcohol. He talks about the night he almost didn’t make it, the cops who showed up at just the right time, and how “extreme ownership” pulled him back from the edge.

This episode is a study in rebuilding — from rock bottom to redemption.

If you’ve ever wondered what keeps a man alive when everything’s gone, listen to this one.

⚠️ Content Warnings

Alcoholism, drug use, suicidal thoughts, military trauma, homelessness, recovery.

🧭 Highlights

• The Marine Corps and the moment everything fell apart
• Homeless in a Mitsubishi — and how he survived it
• Abandonment, betrayal, and the dark side of discipline
• “I drank so I wouldn’t dream.”
• Why taking away someone’s gun doesn’t fix the pain
• What does save a man: brotherhood and honesty
• From victim to ownership — how Sean found purpose again
• What freedom really means (and what it doesn’t)
• “I drank so I couldn’t dream.”
• “When the Corps kicked me out, it felt like the world did too.”
• “You can’t escape what’s in your head by changing your location.”
• “Freedom isn’t anarchy — it’s loving yourself enough to do good.”
• “Stop being the victim. Own it. Change it.”
• “Love what you’re doing, love the people around you, and truck forward.”

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Sean Van Brent, homelessness, addiction recovery, Marine veteran, military trauma, suicide prevention, men’s mental health, freedom, self-ownership, accountability, extreme ownership, vulnerability, abandonment issues, Garth Haslem, Manalizing podcast

🧠 Resources Mentioned

• Extreme Ownership — Jocko Willink & Leif Babin
• 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (U.S.) — dial 988
• Local addiction-recovery or veteran-support groups
• Manalizing.com — where men talk about what men don’t talk about

If Sean’s story hit home, share this episode with a man who’s fighting alone.

Then visit Manalizing.com — join a tribe, find your brothers, and start living free.

No one climbs out of the dark alone.

Adam is an unassuming veteran who is both a regular guy and the salt of the earth. Here is a man with great wisdom and great humility. This is a very impressive man. Here's his interview

Her husband collapsed beside her while cutting a tree. In minutes, the life she loved was gone — and she had to learn what to do when the world stops.

🎧 Episode Description

Chaco Fairbanks isn’t a man, but her story speaks to every man who’s ever loved deeply and lost hard.

Nine months ago, her husband Cody died suddenly while they were remodeling a house in the Smoky Mountains.

In this conversation, she walks us through that day — the CPR, the hospital, the silence afterward — and what grief really feels like when the shock wears off.

Chaco talks about guilt, faith, what to say (and not say) to someone who’s grieving, and why the worst thing you can do is “give them space.”

She opens up about learning to live again, traveling, finding meaning, and making decisions that point toward the future without letting go of the past.

This is one of the most tender and needed episodes we’ve ever recorded.

It’s not about death — it’s about love, presence, and how to keep breathing when half your world is gone.

⚠️ Content Warnings

Sudden death, CPR discussion, trauma, grief, survivor’s guilt, references to suicidal thoughts in others.

🧭 Highlights

• The day everything changed — and how she handled it minute by minute
• “Give them space” is the worst advice
• What real support looks like when someone’s grieving
• Why crying is healthy — and silence isn’t
• How she started living again, one decision at a time
• The guilt, the therapy, and the slow return of hope
• Love that’s fierce enough to still echo every day
• “The worst thing people did was give me space. I needed voices, not silence.”
• “You don’t get over someone like that. You just learn to carry them differently.”
• “I talk to him at night. Maybe he hears me, maybe he doesn’t — but I do.”
• “Life is precious. Don’t wait to love the people you love.”

Chaco Fairbanks, sudden death, widowhood, grief recovery, CPR story, losing a spouse, survivor’s guilt, emotional healing, therapy after loss, Jewish mourning tradition, sitting Shiva, women’s perspective, men supporting widows, crying and vulnerability, Manalizing podcast, Garth Haslem

🧠 Resources Mentioned

• 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline — dial 988 (U.S.)
• Local grief-support or widows’ groups
• Manalizing.com — join a tribe, learn to lift and be lifted

If Chaco’s story touched you, share this episode with someone who’s lost someone — or someone who’s afraid to reach out.

Then visit Manalizing.com and find a tribe.

No one should have to carry loss alone.

A former helicopter pilot turned home inspector opens up about his near-suicide moment in Hawaii, rebuilding his marriage, and learning that real strength means letting others help.

Beau Brown was living the dream—flying helicopters in Hawaii, a career most men would envy. But behind the views and the paycheck was a man quietly breaking down. His marriage was falling apart, his family was slipping away, and one night he found himself sitting on a guardrail with a six-pack and a bag of Twinkies, wondering if anyone would care if he didn’t make it home.

In this powerful conversation, Beau opens up about that night, the voice that told him he wasn’t enough, and how he found his way back from the edge. He shares how he lost 70 pounds, rebuilt his family, and built a thriving business by doing what most men never do—asking for help.

We talk about the real cost of chasing money, how social media became both a tool for growth and connection, and what it means to find your worth beyond your job or your broken truck.

If you’ve ever felt like your life was falling apart, Beau’s story will remind you: you’re not your broken things—and you don’t have to fix yourself alone.

Content Warnings

Suicidal ideation, emotional breakdown, divorce, substance use, self-worth struggles.

Highlights

• From Hawaii helicopter pilot to Utah home inspector
• The night on the guardrail with a six-pack and a decision
• How losing everything led to rebuilding everything
• The truth about men, money, and self-worth
• “You’re not your broken things” — finding peace through purpose
• Why it’s never weak to ask for help

Pull Quotes

• “I realized I wasn’t my broken truck. I was just a man having a hard week.”
• “When everything around me was broken, I thought that meant I was too.”
• “The hardest thing I’ve learned is that being strong doesn’t mean being alone.”
• “War, divorce, broken engines—it’s all the same lesson. Find the silver lining.”

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Bo Brown, helicopter pilot Hawaii, home inspector Utah, men’s mental health, suicidal thoughts, near suicide recovery, self-worth, masculinity, brokenness, family healing, rebuilding marriage, social media growth, fatherhood, depression, men talking openly, Manalizing podcast

Resources Mentioned

• 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline — dial 988 (U.S.)
• Manalizing.com — join a tribe, tell your story, and be heard
• CNH Inspections / @HomeInspectorSaltLake — Bo’s work and media presence

If Beau’s story hit home, share this episode with one man who needs to hear it. Then go to Manalizing.com and find your tribe.

You don’t have to fix everything alone.

A former Army combat medic fights nightmares, family court, and the silence at home—and finds purpose in fatherhood and helping other vets.

Mark Bartholomew spent 13 months in Iraq’s Sadr City and the Triangle of Death as a combat medic. He came home with blood still caked on his boots—and a brain and nervous system rewired by war. In this raw conversation, Mark opens up about treating civilians and soldiers alike, the nightmare that still visits him, and the years he tried to outrun sleep with alcohol. He shares how an elderly VA counselor, a pit bull named Daisy, and a room full of Vietnam vets pulled him back from the edge. We also go straight at the civilian battles: divorce, the “silver bullet” of family court, losing daily contact with his son, and rebuilding a life as a present, purpose-driven dad. If you or someone you love has ever wondered why the mission doesn’t end on the flight home, this episode will land hard—and offer a way through.

Content Warnings

PTSD, war trauma, graphic injury references, suicidal ideation, substance abuse, family-court conflict.

Highlights

• Blood on the boots: triage in urban combat
• Why “coming home is the hard part”
• Daisy the service dog and the first real turn upward
• Group therapy that actually saves lives
• The civilian war: divorce, custody, identity
• Finding purpose: from medic to mentor, from pain to fatherhood

Pull Quotes

• “War was the easy part. Coming home—that was the hard part.”
• “Group therapy saved my life. Those men became my uncles.”
• “When everything felt out of control, suicide felt like the one thing I could control.”

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combat medic, Sadr City, Triangle of Death, Iraq War stories, PTSD recovery, traumatic brain injury, VA counseling, Vet Center group therapy, veteran suicide prevention, service dog Daisy, father’s rights, family court “silver bullet,” men’s mental health, sobriety, purpose and fatherhood, Manalizing podcast

Resources Mentioned

• 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (US) — dial 988
• Local Vet Center (VA community counseling for combat vets & MST survivors)
• Manalizing — join a tribe; lift and be lifted

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If Mark’s story hit home, share this episode with one man who needs it. Then join us at Manalizing—find a tribe, tell your story, and help another man tell his.

Lauren Bush has lived through what most of us can’t even imagine — and come out the other side with fire, grace, and truth that men need to hear.

In this raw and powerful conversation, we talk about what it means to heal after sexual abuse, how trauma passes through generations, why hurt people hurt people, and how a man can love and protect a woman who’s been through hell.

Lauren doesn’t hold back, and neither do we. This is about courage, empathy, and the work it takes to stop the cycle — in ourselves, our families, and our sons and daughters.

If you’ve ever wondered how to show up when someone you love is carrying invisible scars… this episode will change how you see pain, love, and strength.

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When grief detonates, the blast doesn’t stop at one life.

Former Utah County deputy Dennis Harris sits down with Garth Haslem to tell the story he’s spent decades learning to say out loud: his 15-year-old daughter died by suicide with his duty weapon. What followed was shock, isolation, a family blown into survival-mode “islands,” years of therapy, and a long crawl back toward each other. Dennis shares how talking—really talking—became the pressure valve that kept them from exploding, why he built a safety device named after his daughter, and the night he nearly ended his own life… until his kids pulled him back.

This is a conversation about loss, love, and the quiet decision to keep living.

Highlights

• County vs. city policing—and the loneliness of the job
• 1998: the day everything changed, and what grief did to the family
• “Trash compactor men”: why silence turns into shrapnel
• Paying for therapy—and why conversation still heals fastest
• Building a gun lock in his daughter’s name
• The darkest night, the duty gun, and the moment of choosing to stay
• How sons and daughters save their dads—and how dads can show up

If you’re struggling: In the U.S., call or text 988 (Suicide & Crisis Lifeline). You’re not alone.

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Manalizing: where men talk about the things men don’t talk about.

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When the courts, the silence, and the empty house all close in, what does a man do?

Chris Rexwell —a father, veteran, and Alaskan native—talks with Garth Haslem about what it’s like to lose your child for eight months, to come home to nothing but echoes, and to somehow find your footing again. From court battles and controlling partners to rediscovering purpose through service, Chris’s story is about the quiet resilience it takes to keep going when every instinct tells you to give up.

They talk about loneliness, identity, masculinity, and the fight to be a present dad when the system and life itself seem stacked against you. This episode is a survival guide for any man rebuilding after loss.

Highlights:

• Losing access to his son for eight months

• Fighting for equal custody and finally winning

• The silence of living alone after divorce

• Freedom vs. control — learning to breathe again

• Finding healing through service, family, and purpose

• What men learn in the dark that they can’t learn in the light

If you’re struggling: In the U.S., call or text 988 for the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline.

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Manalizing: where men talk about the things men don’t talk about.

men’s mental health, fatherhood, custody battles, divorce recovery, loneliness, isolation, masculinity, emotional resilience, veteran fathers, parental alienation, men’s support, co-parenting, healing after divorce, rebuilding life, freedom, purpose, Alaska, Manalizing podcast, Garth Haslem, Chris Adams

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#MensMentalHealth #Fatherhood #DivorceRecovery #Loneliness #CustodyBattle #Masculinity #Resilience #Manalizing

What happens when a man decides he’s done living alone—and starts building a brotherhood instead?

In this heartfelt conversation, Jade Mollendorf, founder of Spherical Man, joins Garth Haslem to talk about the loneliness, silence, and strength that shape modern men. From divorce and fatherhood to personal growth and purpose, Jade’s story is about choosing connection over isolation and courage over conformity.

He shares how one golf trip with friends became a global men’s movement—teaching guys to be spherical: balanced, whole, and unafraid to live outside the box. Together, Garth and Jade dig into hard topics—masculinity, shame, loneliness, faith, and what it takes to truly rebuild when life falls apart.

This episode is a reminder that brotherhood isn’t just nice to have—it’s survival.

Highlights:

• The origins of Spherical Man and why men need safe spaces

• Divorce, silence, and rediscovering self-worth

• What real masculinity means (and what it doesn’t)

• Learning to be both strong and gentle

• The epidemic of male loneliness and how to fight it

• Building tribes, brotherhood, and second acts

If you’re struggling: In the U.S., call or text 988 for the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline.

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Manalizing: where men talk about the things men don’t talk about.

Keywords / Tags:

men’s mental health, brotherhood, masculinity, divorce recovery, single fathers, fatherhood, men’s groups, vulnerability, loneliness, depression, resilience, self-discovery, leadership, emotional intelligence, male bonding, friendship, personal growth, self-worth, toxic masculinity, overcoming shame, rebuilding life, Manalizing podcast, Spherical Man, Jade Mollendorf, Garth Haslem

Hashtags:

#MensMentalHealth #Brotherhood #Masculinity #DivorceRecovery #Fatherhood #Resilience #Loneliness #Manalizing

Some men swing a hammer. Some build websites. Buck Hedges does both—then saddles a horse, rides into the hills, and thinks deeply about what it means to be a man.

In this grounded, heartfelt conversation, Buck and Garth talk about hard things: loneliness, bullying, anger, marriage, faith, and the slow work of learning how to communicate when no one ever taught you how. From ranch life to IT work, from explosions and loss to laughter and love, Buck’s story reminds us that courage isn’t the absence of fear—it’s what you do with it.

This is cowboy wisdom for the modern man.

Highlights:

• Growing up homeschooled on remote ranches

• Being bullied and learning invisibility

• The explosion that leveled his house—and what went right

• Losing a foster son and learning to forgive

• Anger management and learning to communicate

• Marriage, humility, and the power of showing up

If you’re struggling: In the U.S., call or text 988 for the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline.

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Manalizing: where men talk about the things men don’t talk about.

Keywords / Tags:

men’s mental health, masculinity, rural life, ranch life, cowboy wisdom, anger management, marriage communication, bullying recovery, fatherhood, foster care, forgiveness, resilience, overcoming fear, trauma recovery, gas explosion survival, emotional intelligence, self-awareness, loneliness, faith, humility, Manalizing podcast, Garth Haslem, Buck Hedges

Hashtags:

#MensMentalHealth #Masculinity #Resilience #CowboyWisdom #Fatherhood #Marriage #Forgiveness #Manalizing

Joe DeVito shouldn’t be here. After childhood trauma, an intentional overdose, and years lost to addiction, he walked five miles to detox and rebuilt his life from the inside out. Today he coaches men through shadow work, boundaries, initiation, and conscious fatherhood. We talk: the “golden shadow,” why assertiveness prevents rage, how absence (not just physical) wounds kids, and why purpose is buried beneath the parts of us we reject. This isn’t theory. It’s hard-won wisdom for men who are done pretending and ready to lead.

Guest: Joe DeVito — Sovereign Man | joedevitocoaching.com

Host: Garth Haslem, Manalizing

Chapter markers

04:12 Childhood loss, the “class clown” mask, and Robin Williams syndrome

13:40 Addiction, intentional overdose… and the walk to detox

21:05 Shadow work 101: the parts we deny & the “golden shadow”

31:18 Boundaries vs. abuse; how assertiveness earns respect

40:55 Conscious Fatherhood: raising emotionally intelligent kids

52:10 Initiation & rites of passage for young men

59:30 Legacy: breaking cycles & redefining success

Pull-quotes

• “Grief is just love with nowhere to go.”
• “Purpose hides in the parts of you you’ve rejected.”
• “Assertiveness is how men prevent rage.”
• “I didn’t need another hustle. I needed a mirror.”
• “My kids don’t need a perfect father—they need a present one.”

men’s mental health, shadow work, masculinity, conscious fatherhood, addiction recovery, male initiation, boundaries and respect, emotional intelligence for men, men’s coaching, overcoming divorce/trauma

Social hooks (10–15s)

• “Purpose isn’t found on a vision board—it’s buried in the parts of you you refuse to face.”
• “Men don’t rage when they’re respected. They rage when they don’t assert boundaries.”
• “He shot enough heroin to kill three people—and woke up ready to walk to detox.”

Show notes (concise)

• Shadow work explained: the unconscious parts we reject—and the “golden shadow” inside them
• Why ‘nice guy’ patterns invite disrespect, and how assertiveness changes it
• Conscious Fatherhood: empathy, open communication, and modeling feelings/needs
• Rites of passage: giving young men a real initiation into responsibility
• Legacy ≠ money. It’s breaking cycles so your kids don’t have to

If this podcast hit for you, share it with one man who needs it. Join a Manalizing tribe, and keep the armor off a little longer.

You think you know what it means to be a man—until you meet Jason Christensen.

He’s the kind of dad who teaches his sons to fight him, to think for themselves, and to tell women they’re beautiful. He’s also a divorced father who walked through heartbreak, failure, and faith—and came out knowing exactly who he is.

In this raw, hilarious, and deeply honest episode, Garth and Jason dive into everything from fatherhood to divorce, masculine energy to vulnerability, spiritual awakening to the real meaning of heaven. Jason talks about the pain of being told “don’t tell me about your day,” the cost of hiding your needs, and how his divorce became the crucible that forged a truer man.

This is an episode about strength, humility, and the kind of honesty that saves lives.

Highlights:

• Teaching sons to be men through play, pain, and initiation

• What “being too appropriate” misses about healthy masculinity

• The power a woman holds to heal—or destroy—a man

• Divorce, despair, and the rebuilding that follows

• Learning to say, “That doesn’t work for me”

• Why the hardest times can become your greatest teachers

If you’re struggling: In the U.S., call or text 988 for the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline.

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Manalizing: where men talk about the things men don’t talk about.

Keywords / Tags:

men’s mental health, fatherhood, masculinity, divorce recovery, LDS faith, emotional honesty, vulnerability for men, raising sons, healthy masculinity, spiritual awakening, depression recovery, family healing, marriage, male initiation, strength and softness, armor metaphor, resilience, parenting boys, heartbreak recovery, personal growth, faith, Manalizing podcast, Garth Haslem, Jason Christensen

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#MensMentalHealth #Fatherhood #DivorceRecovery #Masculinity #Vulnerability #Faith #Resilience #Parenting #Manalizing