Why Is Life Getting Harder When I’m Getting Closer to God?

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Two people. Two very different stories of faith, wounds, and unfinished work. In this episode, the speaker breaks open what it means to be a father when you never had one—and why hearing his son call him “Dad” brings up an ache he’s still learning to answer. Meanwhile, the speaker traces the real meaning of “suffering well,” moving beyond churchy platitudes into the harder work of bringing pain, anger, and generational patterns before God again and again.

This isn’t a conversation full of neat answers. Instead, Michael and Kira wrestle honestly with unfilled needs, frustrated prayers, and cycles they are fighting to break, one day at a time. From contending with anger and church hurt to bearing the weight of prayers for family who don’t believe, they lay bare the tension of faith lived in the middle of disappointment and hope.

Takeaways:

- You can give your children (or the people you love) what you never received by starting a new pattern.

- Suffering well means bringing pain to God, not pretending it disappears.

- Generational pain is real, but obedience and honest prayer can plant new seeds.

- Our capacity to bless others is not limited by what was withheld from us growing up.

How have you tried to give others what you never received yourself? Did it surprise you, challenge you, or heal you along the way? Share your story in the comments.

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## Chapters

00:00 Opening preview: Suffering and faith

00:34 Hosts and show introduction

01:35 A birthday at Access

03:53 Behind the scenes with the prayer team

05:54 Prayer and worship in the arena

10:10 Online criticism of Pastor Phillip

14:03 Media platforms and reaching audiences

16:51 Pride, accountability, and surrender

19:19 Grace and judgment in scripture

20:51 Discussing claims about Noah's ark

23:00 End-times teaching and everyday healing

24:48 Identity in Christ and ministry

27:33 Life's purpose and anticipating eternity

31:13 Learning to suffer well

34:47 Anger, assumptions, and prayer

37:49 Responding to emotional hardship

40:30 Discipleship and spiritual guidance

42:33 Faith conversations with atheist relatives

45:51 Unbelief, church hurt, and praying for others

50:22 Following through on promises to pray

55:47 Audience responses and platform stewardship

58:32 Fatherlessness and relating to God

1:04:12 Trust and spiritual fatherhood

1:05:06 Dogs, grief, and companionship

1:08:57 Unconditional love and boundaries

1:12:21 Parenting, patience, and inherited patterns

1:14:09 Breaking generational cycles

1:15:46 Jonah, fear, and obedience

1:17:15 Interpreting a reported pastor's death

1:20:01 Responsibility in ministry

1:20:50 Visiting the Potter's House

1:22:27 Letting go of metrics and trusting provision

1:24:32 Hell, choice, and salvation

1:27:41 Heartbreak and turning toward faith

1:29:56 Alcohol, habits, and spiritual focus

1:34:14 Closing reflections and encouragement

1:35:07 Recent episodes and final sign-off

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