"Summer Rain Come Again"

August is the end of winter; the gray space where we begin to decide if it's warm enough to wear shorts and ditch the turtle neck - puffer jacket aesthetic. it's the time when we wait patiently for the summer rain to come again. to wash away the dust left behind by winter's bite. permeate into the earth and bring out new life. it's the time when we wait for the breath to God to substitute the dry air that's filled our lungs for what seemed like an eternity. at least that's what this August in 2019 felt like. 

2020 had a lot of strange endings. the end of high school, the grim end of the year itself, and the sudden end of my year-long relationship. in the debut episode of 5 Loaves and 2 Fish, i look back and reflect on this relationship i had with my first love. this episode is part self-catharsis and part self-examination. it took me over a month, over 4000 words, many conversations with friends, God and the lover in question to put this together.

i hope you enjoy this episode

~ Ayanda